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This is Valentine day tomorrow, more importantly it's 18th day when I last spoke to her in reality, 1 day though in dreams. Thinking to write something for her in valentine special newspaper. Know it's day dreaming that she will read, but dil hai ki manata nahi, we are people who believes keep doing your mind and leave rest on rest. What should I write, I should write my mind, be original, should not feel shame, without concerning about reader or reader's. In my mind, it's fight between good and selfish me. one who want her at any cost & one who want her (& her family) future happy. A dilemma she must be also going in someway. Anyway started with reading all sms in mobile, went through some sms on net, making a context for a software engineer to write dil-lagi type poem (not shayari for sure). Hoping to depict my dilemma and feeling at best, in 1 hour (better done than perfect is best sentence for me). Despite of self-imposed 1 hour restriction, spent 1.5 hours and another 3 hours to purchase space in newspaper, 11th hour again. Got to pay 2 times charges for being late, thats too at Naidunia. Am attempt to write my 18 day feel: 'Jane ye kaun si tanhayee hai, tere aane se pahle ya tere jane ke baad?'.



Pyar kiya hai tumse 'Lado', bhotikata ki jaroorat nahi
Samman aur fikr hai tumhari, badakr esase (main) mazboor nahi.
Majboot banati ho mujhe, koshish meri bhi yehi rahi
'Bebo' likha hai dil par, samundar ki ret par nahi

Pata hai thak gayee to 'Gudiya', ulajhano ke lambe safar se.
Zindagi badati hai sikhar par, khalipan ke ess sifar se.

Sacche premi nahi milate, tune bhi dharana banayee hai?
Na chhodkar sabka sath, meri hi pratishtha badayee hai

Meri kamjori nahi, sahare ka stambh ho tum
Ansuoon se nikal ke, yadon me nisarg* ho tum

Dar lag raha hai bebo, ye tanhaaye aur teri aas.
Tere ghar aane se pahle, ya meri duniya chhodane ke baad.




*: I think it means amar,
Working Draft:

Jane ye koi si tangayee hai, tere ghar aane se pahle ya meri duniya choodane ke baad.

Bina btaye kyon ye duri kar di, bichud kar usane mohbat hi adhuri kar di

Sacche premi kabhi milate hi nahi, kya tune ye kahawat puri kar di.

Na banakar mere jeevan ka sath, tune meri bhi pratistha kamayee hai,

Kush rahna hamesha, sabne ye hi akhiri ichha jataye hai.

Sach kahu na bebo, ye zinadgi tune hi rangeen banayii hai.

Jaanata hoon thak gayee ho, ulajhano ke lambe safar se,

pyaar badata hai shikhar par,  khalipan ke ess sifar se

Wealth/popularity or connection are only measurement to locate once position?

Do not understand why most of thoughts do materialize after my trips/biking. Happened this time after 2 day trip to kheda.  I am not rich, not wealthy, not famous. There are guys all round visibly much better than me, but why I did not consider them worth comparing. Why only wiser (read aged along with  more than normal amount of experience) people appreciate me or why I am either best guy around for some or nothing to most. A struggle to find my position during bath today resulted in this thought. Yesterday Anil bhaiya called me educated but not guni. Did I assumed myself wrong that I am not educated and actually a guni? Let me find.

Human’s who are not so mature, not intelligent enough & make most of his decision as in correct. May be relatively smartest, but lacking far in absolute terms. No wonder humans need religion to guide, luck to blame and learns only after experience. There could be a debate for fact that Humans are poor species in absolute terms, and believe JS never loses in logics J.

So to make our life comfortable & progressive (definition of progressive is also made by human, action towards progressive has got recursive effect in terms of WrongHumanFactor) we gradually defined a system, system of society, system of economics, system of knowledge. We learn thought this system using school of society (home etc), school of money and school of education and all this schools in inclusion. Gradually we learn exercise this skills and become smarter people (guni), become wealthier, becomes know experts. These positions are respected by humans, cos positions are defined by humans over long time.

Let’s understand for whom system is build, it is built for humans. Humans mean people with different capability, physics, experience, strength etc. to accommodate them all, system is made so that it cover majority, majority is normal people. It is not for people with lower than normal and also not for people with normal plus. Both are not supposed to take progressive position in this HumanCreatedWorld. No wonder normal+ people also did not get any position here, than what do they get and what do they exactly do with their normal+? They made them self-align with bigger better world, which is more mature, a system made by nature/god/universe. And appreciation they get from this bigger world is…………….is…………….is known  as, well this system is more stronger, so you there are less flaw and you need to be just correct. It cannot happen by chance, you have to earn it, not by targeting it, but by following the path of Karma. Appreciation we get in this better world is Wisdom. No wonder there are quite less. No wonder sometime people with better appreciation form HumanCreatedWorld diehard wish/do move to this Wisdom, but one with Wisdom is never diehard interested for being wealthy/famous.

This is 30 minutes now and I have to close it, hope you received my pulse. "When system made by people appreciate your alignment, it makes you wealthier. When system made by god appreciate your alignment, it gives you Wisdom No Wonder I am not wealthy."

Text I wrote but removed from blog

[This is somebody seating next to me & asking to write it down right now. Got to finish in 15 minutes, so please understand the pulse than content. Why I am writing, people want me to start, may be something small.
Those who do, are doing it for sake of their association (responsibility on slightly less than complete wisdom status) with HumanCreatedWorld.]